Freedom.....Is it really a good thing?

Well, I have made it through my first week of summer vacation.  I love the thought of not going to work......and still being paid!  It hasn't been all vacation though.  I am coordinating the summer reading tutoring program at Parkside, so my Tuesdays and Thursdays are filled with tutoring.  It has been a real eye opener for me being "in charge".  I am in charge of of 5 tutors, and responsible for making sure that the children are coming to their scheduled session.  I have been amazed at how many parents just haven't brought their kids to their session....especially because it is FREE!!!  There is no other place where you can take your child to receive 1-on-1 tutoring based on the child's academic needs and not have to pay a dime.  Most tutoring centers charge at least $20-30 per 45 minute sessions.  We had 7 out of 20 kids not show up on Thursday!  Ugh!  I told the tutors to bring a book next week, since we don't know if these kids will show up.

I went to lunch with Kimmy this week.  I think we both forget that we live so close to each other.  It was good to chat, and we both decided we need to get together at least every 2 weeks. 

Thursday after tutoring, I went with my Mom, Tayler, and Grandma to lunch at Mimi's and to visit my Great Grandma.  I don't make it to visit her much so it was good to see her.  Her memory is starting to slip, so she tells the same stories over and over again, and has some pretty interesting takes on life.....she thought the care center employees had put a camera inside her bathroom.  She kept telling us that we couldn't see it because it was "part of the props".  We had a hard time not laughing but had to so we didn't hurt her feelings.  At least she still has a sense of humor and can laugh about life.  It really made me realize how miserable it is to get old.  I have told Cameron that as soon as I can't go to the bathroom on my own, I am done!  Since I have more free time now, I plan on going with my Grandma to visit her more often.

I have come to the realization that complete freedom for me is not easy.  I am so used to having a pretty tightly scheduled life, and this complete freedom thing has been really weird for me.  I almost haven't known what to do with myself.  Since I function so well with a schedule, I made myself one.  I know that sounds really strange, but I did.  I figured that if I didn't, I could very easily waste a lot of time during summer vacation.  I scheduled chores for me to do everyday, time to go to the gym, and time for me to do something for me (reading, shopping, etc).  I also am making it my goal to have all my "chores" and other stuff done by noon.  I hate the thought of wasting my day away so I am going to be ready and showered everyday by 1.  I know you are all probably laughing at me that I had a little freak out because I wasn't scheduled, since most people would love it, but I need structure.

The other thing I have come to realize this week is how little Cameron and I take pictures!  I look at all these blogs that are filled with pictures, and we really don't have many.  So, my other summer goal is to start taking pictures of us doing "stuff".  Tayler and I hiked up Millcreek Canyon the other day, but did I think to take my camera...NO!!  So that is my goal for the summer....start doing a better job documenting our lives!